Namaste

Have you ever asked yourself questions…questions you had no answers to…questions you’re not even sure have any answers…hoping somewhere there is a revelation out there waiting to spring on you with perfect answers…justifiable answers that can somehow make things make sense…well I’ve been there…still am.

Dear God

If you are out there listening to me I need you to come I need you to create a miracle. Lord I know you see all of us equally and I ain about to make myself supreme for I know ain none of this about me but I need you to hear me.

I need you to listen to me Lord, I need you to hear my plea. I need you to make a change. Why did you make me this way? Why did you make me this way if all of it was for nothing then was I just born to suffer? Was that your grand plan?

You know I really don’t believe that. I believe you made me this way for a purpose. I believe I was meant to do something really amazing with all the crazy you stuffed up in me. I really am everything you are.

You know my heart, from the inside out. The visions I have, you gave me. The plan in my head is all yours. Lord I really, really need you to look and see your children. They are all waiting on you. They all look up to you coz you the hero. You made it. You’re our rock and inspiration. Without you we are nothing.

We need you Lord. We need you to open yourself to us. We need you to mould us. We need you to shape us. We need you to inspire us. We need you to motivate us. We need you to Light your Light upon our lives.

Dude, you know everything about us. Why leave us to suffer when we was born that way?

We need you to make it right. We need your justice, your love and peace. There is no way we were born to lose I refuse to believe you would do that.

Everything’s so messed up right now and you know how to right all the wrongs coz things should be this way. Africa deserves better. Africa deserves a second chance.

May we forever remain by your side in all things. When we search our hearts I only pray we find you there no matter the circumstances. Have you ever been so hungry Lord? So hungry you could bite off your own lips and have them for dinner?

Have you ever been out in the cold hard streets Lord with no corner to turn to? Have you ever worked so hard you feel like you crazy? Have you ever been so determined to push on even when your shoes wear out you still running…and when it rains even though you know it’s a blessing it’s one you ain too happy about…coz your bed is gonna be wet?

Lord, have you ever fought with rats for your food? Ever been part of a war you ain even involved in then they call you a victim of circumstance? Have you been in the gutter hoping , wishing and praying the next second will be your last?

How did you go on Lord? Tell me how you made it from good to great coz I wanna know. How did you make it from all of that? I really wanna learn from you so I can be just like you.

I’ve been beat down and left for dead. I’ve done hopeless. I’m no stranger to poverty. I knew great loss the day you woke me up next to my mama’s stone cold dead body. I must’ve been 17 years old and what did I know?!

I’m grown now and I’m telling you that you are needed.

Show us your Glory. Let us see you march in Victory. I heard you was jealous so go right ahead and be jealous about us not winning! Shine your Light Lord. Help us conquer. We need you.

We need to champion nations with you. We need to trample over the strongholds of poverty with you. We need to take a strong grip on pain, hurt and suffering.

You are the Rose of Sharon, the Prince of all Peace. The Governor and Ruler.

Speak  to us with your Love. Let us meditate and overflow with your Perfect Peace. Shower us with your unending Love.

Plant in us an eternal Spring, create in us a River that flows eternally. Let us be as your will intended for us always.

We strive for many dreams and ambitions and only you can make them a success.

Keep us when the storms hit and we become a mockery for the oppressor. A laughing stock to the enemy.

Make us instruments of your Divine Favor.

What is meant to be will be.

Namaste.

Growth…

Well life has certainly moved on, I’ll tell you that for free. Even before there was an opportunity to make any reflections, life spurred on without any limitations or hesitations.

I suppose it is the reason that at the end of the day I am able to keep my smile no matter the challenges or the bitterness because no matter how tough I’m getting it at least I still have a reason to put a smile on my face.

No matter how broke I may be, I’m wealthy in all that matters. Not one of those state of mind kinda things but more of a realization type thing.

I am sitting up in the middle of the night doing what I must , equally as all man must to take care of the things that must be. I am surprised by other elements within the dynamics of The Journey.

I suppose it is one thing to dream and quite another to be able to manifest those dreams. It is no simple and easy fit. I think it has taught me how to be more strong willed and determined to get to where I need to be.

I was thankful, earlier today to find my heart was still in the same place as I had started which affirmed that I’m stronger for where I’m headed.

It sounds very individualistic yet it is not by any means. Every movie has a lead actor yet that lead is nothing without the sound engineer, assistant cast, visual team as well as the entire production that makes all things possible. All of that is nothing without those who will buy into those ideas so as to sustain the entire vision.

So it is a collective effort then when I think of the broader perspective. I have to acknowledge some things yet also find common ground for everything to make some kinda sense.

I’m glad for music because at the end of the day no matter how insane I am I know it will always find me and save me. That’s if the words in my blood don’t stop me first.

I’m keen on the developments as they happen and like a child I am watching my own life unfold in front of my very own eyes as it were. I’m interested in seeing the grown up version of me.

I don’t want to be boring. I hope I don’t get to be.

So I’m glad, no matter what I wont lose myself. That by no means says I wont grow. With growth comes change. And I must oblige as needs be. Yet it’s like fine wine this ageing thing. Like jazz and soul and hip-hop all at o

Not at all roses and sunshine all the time. Storms with immense thunders come and boy oh boy does the wind just blow and not that kinda blow…I mean the kind that chafes you  all  out. Make you all dry and $hit.

Nobody really complains in this grown up thing. Some bones are weary coz they got broken a long time ago and when they regrew they took a whole new form and shape, so one has to make do.

I am taking each day as it comes…join me on the journey…

Vision of Love

This is what I had grown up knowing as music…this sound, particularly in her, is iconic as I feel she will never again reach these levels in her music. Maybe she isn’t trying to…that is good. Maybe it is I who needs to catch up.

Anyway, here she captured me as a child and I was fascinated. And as I shut down tonight after another long day, I find this tone soothing.

I am praying you are out there not only reading this but making means and ways to achieve your goals so you may turn you dreams into reality. May you continue to prosper in all you do.

MadCrazyLuv,

LoyZaR

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